Time to get personal.....The honest truth!

Hi Guys! 

As you can tell from the title of this post, I am in a mood to get personal with you all and let you have an insight into my mind and my thoughts at this moment in time. 

As you all know I am starting University at the end of September and I couldn't be more happier and excited for it. I have wanted to become a vet since I was three years old, meaning my dream started 15 years ago. So as you can guess I have been so driven to go to University and become a Vet but as time went on and i did my GCSEs it became apparent that I needed to change my career aspects which did kind of annoy me because I wanted this for so long BUT after researching into veterinary nursing grades for University I found that this was the route I wanted to take, even more so that becoming a vet. Anyway as time has gone on and the stress of applying to University all paid off as I found out that I would be going to Middlesex University in London. 

No don't get me wrong I am so excited to start this new chapter of my life in a different city ect! BUT I am scared. I am scared of moving away from Nottingham. I am scared of moving away from the life I know. I am scared to move away from my boyfriend of nearly 2 years, my family and my friends. It seems that the closer it gets to me moving to London (30 days as of midnight) the more I get scared and the more I worry. I haven't be one of them girls who was popular throughout school and college, and I find it extremely hard to make friends as I find it hard to open up. I have been stabbed in the back so many times I don't know if it hurts or whether I am just used to it now! I know I am putting all of this into my blog but I think that if i get this off my chest then maybe it will help me be less scared of starting the new chapter of my life. I have spoken to my boyfriend about it and I know he is going to find it hard seeing me every weekend for the first couple of months but then I won't see him for two weeks and when I do get to see him it will be for two days. And for me that will be extremely hard because I turn to him when I've had a bad day as his hugs seems to make me forget my problems but being 137 miles way from him will be hard as you can't get a cuddle over skype or a phone call. 

I just feel like I won't fit in and will become the loner of the group who just stays in and works to get her mind of missing her boyfriend or the girl who works because she has no friends. 

Sorry to get all deep and personal but I just needed to get it off my chest!

Until next time 

HJAYY xxx 

Holiday in Wales!

Hi guys

So last week I was in Wales on holiday!

From waking up on a flat airbed surrounded by a moat to travelling back in the middle of the night the week was really good.

The first day was mainly travelling and then waiting for food, then the heavens decided to open and soak everything. And by everything I mean EVERYTHING! I swear me and my boyfriend woke up surrounded by a moat as the ground sheet had puddles, in fact it had lakes in it. But then to top this off EVERY night the air bed deflated and we woke up on the floor! I can tell you for nothing this was uncomfortable and felt wet because the floor was wet! Also this was our wake up call most mornings 

  

Anyway after this the day was rubbish with the weather but never the less and now armed with umbrellas we headed towards New Quay for fish and chips. Oh and my dog decided he was going to photo bomb my mums picture but this is probably one of my favourite picture of the holiday!

 Over the next couple of days we explored the coasts around where we were staying. But when I say close I actually mean a 2 hours drive away! Not fun especially when you end up with a numb bum.

On our final day of being in Wales we went to Devils Bridge.

The story behind Devils Bridge is "around the IIth Century, the Devil visited Wales as he had never been there before and he had heard that the scenery was breathtaking. He soon came across an old lady who seemed upset. "What's the matter?" he asked out of curiosity.
"Oh, I'm in such a terrible muddle and I don't know what to do!. My cow has wandered across the river and I can't get her back".
'Ah!" said the Devil 'What you need my dear, is a bridge, and I am just the man to build you one. Why don't you go home, and in the morning there will be a bridge waiting for you. All I ask in return is to keep the first living thing to cross the bridge!"
"Okay then" she said "It's a bargain. I'll see you in the morning. Nos da, Goodnight"

That night she wondered about this stranger who would build her a bridge. 'What a strange request! Why should I cross the bridge to get my cow back if he gets to keep me in exchange? Mind you it is very tempting offer"

The next day she got up and called for her faithful dog. Together they went down to the river. "Well well" she couldn't believe her eyes. In front of her was the best bridge that she had ever seen! I told you that I would build you a bridge" said the Devil appearing from nowhere.
"Now it's your turn to keep your side of the bargain".
I know, you get to keep the first living thing to cross the bridge" and she started to walk towards the bridge. But just when she got to the entrance, she stopped, took out a loaf of bread from her apron pocket and hurled it across the bridge. As quick as a flash and before the Devil could stop it, the dog chased after it. 'Aaaaaaagh!!!!!" screeched the Devil. "You stupid old woman, I don't believe it! Your smelly, hairy farm dog has become the first living thing to cross my bridge. It's no good to me" he screamed and then he vanished.

Well, the Devil was never seen in Wales again as he was so embarrassed at being outwitted by the old lady. High in the mountains near Aberystwyth, there is a village where a very old bridge crosses a deep gorge. Above it are two other bridges built at later dates. But the lowest one....Well, they say that the Devil himself built it!"

Now that you know the story I can continue *laughs* what my dad didn't tell us was there was 600 STEPS TO CLIMB! Bearing in mind I only had flip flops on and trust me this was a bad mistake *hides in hoodie* After getting over the initial shock of having to climb 600 steps we started thee journey!

The scenery was beautiful and peaceful

Further round the journey we came to Jacobs Ladder. This was about 100 steps maybe more at a 45 degree angle that we had to WALK DOWN WITH TWO DOGS!! Finally we made it so I took a picture (well my mum did but I made her send it me) of the steps.

Overall this journey round the scenery took us 45 minutes or maybe longer I can't remember but all I know is if you do this DO NOT GO IN FLIP FLOPS! This was the state of mine and my boyfriend's feet after!   

  Then my mum decided to photobomb so it looks like I have three legs! 

So after a bipolar week of weather the week was good and relaxing and would happily go back to New Quay again!

Talk soon

HJAYY xxx


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As you can guess from the title of this post I got my a level results today and therefore knowing whether I've got into uni or not.

But I've only gone and done it I've got into middlesex university to study veterinary nursing for three years. This has been my dream since I was 3 years old and it's finally happening! 

Review: New Cid London mascara

Hey guys! I've managed to get a bit of internet while I'm in the middle of Wales  -happy times- I got this mascara in last months issue of Cosmo which worked out well because I needed a new mascara! 

After the first use I felt it lengthened my lashes! 

It gives a nice even coat of mascara and in the picture above i put two coats on! Overall I really like this mascara and it is my go to mascara as my base coat! 

All love 

Hjayy x 

Tattoos!

Hi guys 

One thing you won't know about me is that I'm obsessed with tattoos! Since I turned 18 last November I've have had 3 tattoos and will be booking in for my fourth very soon! 

My first tattoo I got on my 18th birthday and it's a puzzle piece with a Purple Heart inside it, this is on my right ankle. It's a matching tattoo with my boyfriend and as you can see he has the green heart in his puzzle piece! Also this picture is after we got them done so they look more red than they actually are and the grey you can see has faded loads as it's like a highlight to make it have depth! This only took about 20 minutes to do and not sure on the cost as my boyfriend booked it for my birthday.

Pain rating: about 6 I did have numbing cream but it didn't work 

My second tattoo is for my older brother who sadly isn't with us any more. So I got this in memory of him! I got the idea off my mum as she had a white rose tattoo for him as well but hers is tiny where as mine is located in my right rib! I think this picture was taken a couple of days after I had it done! This took 3 hours to complete and was done in one sitting. It cost me £130

Pain rating: for the first 2 hours I'd say about a 4 but I was using super numb (a numbing cream the tattoo shop sells) but after that wore off I would say about a 8 

My latest tattoo is a quote from one of my favourite TV shows...breaking bad ! I just love the quote "no half measures" and seen as I'm going into veterinary nursing in September at UNI I thought why not get this as a tattoo because I've waited forever to get to this point where I can start living my dream job! Also it reminds me to give everything I do my all. As you can see it's still very red as I took this as soon as I got home *please ignore the coke can forgot it was in this pic lol* this was my fastest tattoo it took 11 mins from sitting in the chair to walking out the shop and it only cost £15

Pain rating: 0 because of the numbing cream 

 

All of my tattoos have been done at The monster shop in Mansfield. 

My puzzle piece was done by Paul.

My rose was done by Ryan.

My quote was done by H. 

Review: Garnier bb cream original

I got this as a sample from Cosmo mag. 

I have mixed views in this product but mainly negative! 

Firstly the colour was slightly too dark for my skin and there is only two colours of this bb cream which is annoying. Secondly it made my skin more shiny after applying which I hate seen as I have oily skin anyway! Boo for oily skin! With this in mind I had to use two layers of my setting powder in order to get rid of the shininess. 

Also after a couple of hours of wearing this bb cream I noticed it had started to become shiny again.

However I found the coverage was nice and it had a nice fragrance to it. 

So overall I won't be buying this bb cream and will look for another one! I'm thinking of trying the Maybelline bb cream for oily skin. I think it's the pure dream I'm not sure what it's called 

Has anyone tried this bb cream if so how did you get on with it??